it has been a month since me n my bf broke up..so he's my ex now....but....the week after we broke up...he came to me n started to talk to me...well its really my fault that we became like this.i cheated on him~ *sigh* anyways...since the day he talk to me...he was sooooo nice...well..he is..but then...theres just somehting bout him that i don't think i can really trust...i mean...his intentions of coming back to me...since we broke up..we nver walk tgther...ever! thats not the problem tho...well...sometimes it is coz i feel like i'm no one to him anymore..but he cares soooo much...still do..i've been causing problems...i started smoking since we broke up...but..i've stopped..after we're kinda like tgther but not so tgther..ok i'm confused now.haha! urmm...the major prob here is that...he wants sex...we used to hav a perfect sex life...well..not so perfect...great i would say...n i'm the first person he lost his virginity to...he couldnt let me go.n since he's sooooooo addicted to it...he kept coming back for more...at first i didnt know what was his real intentions..but now i do...BUT...he did show me that he really care for me...does it mean that he still loves me? he never told me that...he might hav been said it by accident or on purpose..i dont know...even the phrase.. 'miss u..' i havent heard dat phrase coming out of his mouth since ages i think....

i actually asked my friends' opinion on this...they said that i'm wasting my time on this jerk...but i love him sooo much...i know its my fault back then...but..i've changed...i've been thinking bout this for weeks now....still am confused...and not sure what to do....*sigh*

p/s:if any of my facts here confuses u...pls let me know.